heys. whats up. here i am at my baby's house. sigh. lotsa things happened, AGAIN. i really hope its the end of our problems. its like these 2 mths, we have been quarreling, breaking up and taking each other for granted. sometimes i really feel that she dont love me? especially when she's angry. sigh. i really hope everything will work out somehow. i wont do rash things anymore. i think i will just try my best to endure everything. i realise i really love her alot and i seriously want her to feel the same. i really dont have the mood to do anything if she's not with me or we're quarreling. am i useless? i know i cant succeed in anything if she's not gonna be with me.

finally, ORD OH!! gotta look for work real soon, work hard save up for my studies. wait for my baby to complete her Os then we'll decide what to do for our future. anticipating so much right now. gosh. i havent even take my beloved IC. shit man. gonna go take it on monday. miss it so so much!! lols.

gotta go do some work with dearrie soon. hungry !! hello. baby's gonna cook for me? lols. guess i'll do it myself. later got england vs israel. 255am. dont know wana watch anot? dearrie will be so bored if i watch. hmmm. see how bahs. its been long since i catch a soccer match. =(. never mind. baby's more important. alright. ciao for now ~

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:24 AM

Everythin's over now. I broke up with e one i love e most. Why? Cos she whacked me so many times in public. At her hse. I've never got whack till i actually didnt't do anythin at all. I love her so much yet i didnt get true love back. Guys and girls, can anyone tell me what is true love? Hard to trust girls nowadays. So materialistic. I'm poor i admit. I can work hard and provide for anyone. I'm poor now. But i can work towards a better future. This girl broke my heart so much. I just let it go. Sigh.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 8:18 AM