1.06.2007
The Actor
He takes you out and he takes you up
cause he can show you so much
I go to bed and tomorrow again
there´s a lot of work to be done
He gives you gold and he will promise you
the whole world will be yours
I just can´t tell you I love you so
even though my odds are low
I´m not an actor I´m not a star
and I don´t even have my own car
But I´m hoping so much you´ll stay
That you will love me anyway
The dirty games in the neon shows
this is the world he knows
Watching the stars satisfies my soul
thinking of him makes me feel so cold
The fancy cars and the restaurants
you´re just so fond of the man
Sometimes I wonder if you are blind
Can´t you see he´s got dirt on his mind
I´m not an actor I´m not a star
and I don´t even have my own car
But I´m hoping so much you´ll stay
That you will love me anyway
sigh. everythings' so messed up nowadays. sometimes i feel so loved by you but sometimes i cant feel that you even love me. its all so different between me and your exs'. cant change that i guess.
we're at bugis starbucks after shopping around. only i shop? blahs. hahs. whatever. kinda bored. kinda down. but you'll never understand. wont you even bother?
all i know is that i really need you. boos. dont peep.. lol. i just wana live my life without anything else. hopefully, all will be fine for us. seriously, i love you alot. i've went thru so much hurt to continue to be with you. i want none of that anymore.
cant i feel very loved all the time? cant you have nothing to do with other guys? i know its tempting, but try hard? just for me? cant you treat me like how you treat your ex bfs? just gotta look at your entries. its like so much sweeter. me? boos. i really need you to love me and me only. do everything you can to prove it? or to show it? i pray to god that one day you will.
alright lahs. gotta stop here if not you're gonna get so bored. hoho.
LOVES.
* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_
6:00 PM