i'm at the mess again. it's been long since i blog. here we go again~


got handcuffed like for 2 hours plus after going for urine test. it hurts. damn. my RSM's so shitty. scared i run? i not so stupid lahs. then at around 1030 went for charge. was charged AWOL for 4 days. the JDO gave me 12 days DB? i hafta be like pathetic to ask him to cover the 4 days with my leave. so he asked my last time in-charge how's my working attitude. luckily my colleague put in some good words for me. was spared the DB shit. GOD BLESS ME!


and so, there goes my baby's 12 days freedom? hahas. sigh. i'm so scared my baby will hurt me. i think she don't really understand how much i love her? this few days, there are goods and bads. i wonder why she still go out and meet her ex. got into problem with one of them at plaza. staring incident. shit. so YP. hahas. but i was like so damn jaded already and he actually fix his eyes on me. shit. nevermind. it's over anyway. i really love her alot. i'm a rare species. LOL.


now i'm at the mess. downloading some songs and cutting it for my baby. no sweat. i'll do anything for you baby. she lost her wallet. damn. so suay. DANIEL bought it for her. man, right now i can't buy anything for her yet. my pay's gonna get delayed. SHIT.




you're the reason behind everything that i do.
dying for you is worth it.
i dont mind waiting.
please just dont leave me alone.
its like killing me.





i just love you so much, my pearlyn baby.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1:00 AM