early in the morning and i'm at the mess blogging. gotta be crazy. i haven't slept for like.. 2 days? since friday afternoon i think. who cares.. i'm just making myself suffer for nothing? waddya mean you can't sleep without her talking on the phone with you? =\ hmmm.. not entirely cos of that. friday night was like, i didn't even know when she left. she just disappear. i think it's my fault again cos i didn't reply her msg? argh.. nvm..

feel happy that she's coming back, though i know she won't wana meet me when she comes back. sigh. felt worried for her cos she vomitted yesterday. she went drinking on friday night. with her ex boyfriend and some buddy (somebody, LOL). what can i even say or do? well.. it's alright i think. hey peeps, ain't i so darn different from the past? (i hear eugene shouting "YES!") LOL.

still darn early in the morning eh. nothing much to brag about anymore. just hoping that i'll have a fine day ahead of me. (and maybe, let us meet up.)

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 7:42 AM